Drowned...

Sitting in front of my desk

wanting to get somewhere...

I have to start working pretty soon

otherwise I'm not gonna make it.

Every season the same pain...

Only this time it's worse then ever,

trying to make a big change in my life,

to leave Paris & return to Stockholm

where I am planing on doing my best to have my own line

as soon as possible...

yeah right like that's gonna be easy...

why is it so damn hard???

Isn't passion & talent enough?

How am I gonna make a new collection in less then 6 weeks

when I'm completly overworked and

stressed...

Not even my 5 weeks in Lebanon helped...

Fashion design is a rotten place to be...

I look around me and I see a lot of fake, a lot of bling

a lot of "I know someone who know someone",

or I'm X's daughter,

or simply "$$$"

it's impossible to be creative with so much pressure...

I feel like someone is drowning me in a pool...

I need to take a breath...

I need to BE....

Just

BE

&

Create

whatever

I

want

to

create

I wish I knew somone who knew someone...

But then again

I won't be able to say

" I made it by myself "

For all of you lonely designers out there...

We'll make it...

Pictures Zeina Holloway who else???